wolf among wolves -bonnie prince billy

She loves a soul,
That i've never been
A dog among dogs,
A man among men
And every day,
When i come home to her
She holds a phantom,
She kisses and she hugs him
And I am not
Averse to how she loves him
Why must I live and walk,
Unloved as what I am

Why can't I be loved as what I am
A wolf among wolves, and not as a man
Among men

She craves a home
That she can go in
A sheltered cave,
That I have never seen
Not in my life,
And not even in my dreams

Why can't I be loved as what I am
A wolf among wolves, and not as a man
Among men

one minute im fine

the next i convulse, sadness welling up and controlling my body like
the recurring sickness you get when you have food poisoning.
always feel better afterwards.
but only for a while.

may hotmail..

rot in hell
be tortured through various medieval chinese methods
slapped with mighty salmon

for
tricking me into updating to their super dooper 'live' service

and then
fucking up my messages
making me wait ten days to unsubscribe

and then
deleting all my contacts

i feel like kicking something.
grrrrrrrrr

actually things are going not too badly

so fuck this blog off for a while i reckon

What went wrong on tuesday the 2nd of May

Broke my usb key. it looks limp and sad and like it doesnt give a 'fuck' whether i want my stuff back off it.
Lost library book. little thin, crappy introduction to '@#$] book and library wants to charge me 83. until i pay them or replace the book with one i can find they will continue to charge me library fines. thanks guys! milk me!.
Library admin 'ladies' lied to me and told me i could hand essay in at 5, when i get there at 430, its all locked up and they treat me like blue cheese in a sauna and wont assure me that it will be stamped as being submitted that day.

yap yap

i have another blog. been meaning to do this one for a while as i feel its a truer reflection of my life than charming anecdotes and thoughtful philosophical reflection you might have found in my other blogs (emphasis on the might). Truer reflection because basically Life Is A Cruel Beast to me. Its not that i am in darfur or sudan, surviving genocidal tribes and general 4-horses-of-the-apocalypse type of despair, its just that i am inundated with trivial frustration which (i think) is beyond my fair share. THIS BLOG SHALL BE ITS SHRINE